I really liked this email I recieved from a friend, and I thought it the perfect place to post this for safe keeping.
Five (5) lessons about the way we treat people
1 - First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady.
During my second month of college, our professor gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions until I read the last one:
"What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?"
Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall, dark-haired and in her 50's, but how would I know her name?
I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade.
"Absolutely, " said the professor.. "In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant.. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello.."
I've never forgotten that lesson.. I also learned her name was Dorothy.
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2. - Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain
One night, at 11:30 p.m., an older African American woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway trying to endure a lashing rain storm. Her car had broken down and she desperately needed a ride.
Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car. A young white man stopped to help her, generally unheard of in those conflict-filled 1960's. The man took her to safety, helped her get assistance and put her into a taxicab. She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his address and thanked him.
Seven days went by and a knock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a giant console color TV was delivered to his home. A special note was attached. It read:
"Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway the other night. The rain drenched not only my clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along. Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying husbands''s bedside just before he passed away... God Bless You for helping me and unselfishly serving Others."
Sincerely,
Mrs. Nat King Cole.
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3 - Third Important Lesson - Always remember those who serve.
In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less, a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in front of him.
"How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked.
"Fifty cents," replied the waitress.
The little boy pulled his hand out of his pocket and studied the coins in it.
"Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired.
By now more people were waiting for a table and the waitress was growing impatient..
"Thirty-five cents," she brusquely replied.
The little boy again counted his coins. "I'll have the plain ice cream," he said.
The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on the table and walked away The boy finished the ice cream, paid the cashier and left..
When the waitress came back, she began to cry as she wiped down the table. There, placed neatly beside the empty dish, were two nickels and five pennies... you see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had to have enough left to leave her a tip.
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4 - Fourth Important Lesson. - The obstacle in Our Path.
In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the King's' wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it.. Many loudly blamed the King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way.
Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the King indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway.
The peasant learned what many of us never understand: Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve
our condition!
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5 - Fifth Important Lesson - Giving When it Counts...
Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who was suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her only chance of recovery appeared to be a blood transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had miraculously survived the same disease and had developed the antibodies needed to combat the illness. The doctor explained the situation to her little brother, and asked the little boy if he would be willing to give his blood to his sister.
I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a deep breath and saying, "Yes I'll do it if it will save her."
As the transfusion progressed, he lay in bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did, seeing the color returning to her cheek. Then his face grew pale and his smile faded. He looked up at the doctor and asked with a trembling voice, "Will I start to die right away?"
Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his sister all of his blood in order to save her.
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Now you have choices:
1. Delete this from your memory, or
2. Save it to your mental harddrive, to be remembered each time the opportunity to live above yourself is realized.
I hope that you will choose No. 2. We can live within ourselves and never risk, never lose much to the plights of others. We can stay within our comfort zones and never fall with possibility of emotional injury. We can stay behind our wall and not allow others to see over , climb over , dig under, or tear it down with the premise of getting close only to have that closeness taken away. It seems kinda dull and uneventful though. Life is about the events that make it more than what you have known before. Without the first kiss, you cant have the best one! Without the first embrace, you cant feel the comfort and stability that being held by someone that adores you brings. With the hopes for happiness, peace, and love, theirs always risk. You may fall 100 times, but if you get back up, the odds say that sooner than later, someone and something will come along that pulls you to your feet, and makes the 100 falls worth it all. Without knowing the pain of falling, can you really appreciate the success of holding your "one and only"? Ive said it before... it may not be original, but when I said it, it was original to me:
SOMETIMES THE REWARD IS WORTH THE RISK.
"Work like you don't need the money, love like you've never been hurt, and dance like you do when nobody's watching."
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
The OTHER path!
Sometimes we just make the dumbest decisions in life and love. We rarely think things through with enough time, focus, sensibility, and rationality when trying to focus on the big picture as it pertains to things of a personal nature. I think we are swayed many times by hearing what we want to hear... even if it cannot be true. "Thats what ive ALWAYS wanted to hear!" We see something that just looks so perfect and we convince ourselves that it has to be, and yet its a mirage. What makes us take the more dangerous option when it comes to letting others into our hearts? We see something thats safe, its well planned, its thought out, its a straight shot to the other side where happiness and truth can be found, and its already waiting... yet, we opt for the other path! Why? Maybe we think we will get to the end of that path and what is waiting there FASTER than we are ready for? The other path...The path thats NOT safe, NOT proven, NOT tested. Its lined with trap after trap, its bumpy, rocky, and hilly, its never an easy navigation through this path. This path takes pain and suffering to get through... but it what makes it so tempting for everyone?
Ive learned several things over the past few years since my marriage came to an end. These were lessons that were painful, and they have not truly been disproven to date! Lets analyze:
*Chicks DIG the A-HOLE!!! Thats right! Its PROVEN! None will agree, of course, but they dont have to agree verbally as they make the choice everytime! What makes a man an A-Hole? Is this an inherited gene? Is it a learned trait? Is there a school for A-Holes?
*Chicks DIG the BAD BOY!!! Bad Boy syndrome! This can be interpreted many different ways, whether you ride a motorcycle, whether your a drinker and/or a smoker, if you love barhopping with friends, whether you have a love affair with a bong or rolling papers, whether you are a proven womanizer, whether you just have a non commital attitude toward relationships. You dont even have to be a handsome guy to get a chick if youre a Bad Boy. ... either of these traits, or combos including these traits, will get you the girl! BEWARE BAD BOYS!!! If you are a BadBoy and you GET the girl, do NOT commit to her! For the love of God, do NOT use the L WORD...If you do, the Bad Boy appeal is gone. The chase has ended. Then, you find yourself as just another shmuck thats about to be dropped quicker than ACID at WOODSTOCK!
*The WORSE you treat a woman, the MORE she hangs on!!! Again... its been PROVEN! Now, I can only speculate, but I assume that a woman does NOT have to be happy to be in a relationship. I mean, ive seen women be IGNORED, BEAT UP, RIDICULED, HARRASSED, EMBARRASSED, and HURT, both EMOTIONALLY and PHYSICALLY. Of course, I dont believe for one minute that a woman likes to be hit in the face, kicked, verbally abused, spat on, or cheated on, but they seem to respond favorably to that junk! The woman just hangs right in there with em! Now THAT my friends is dedication... but BLINDLY DEDICATED is dangerous!
*The L WORD is KRYPTONITE to todays women! They dont wanna hear that word out of a mans mouth, or any form of that word a man may try to subdue todays woman with! They dont want to see it in a mans eyes. They dont want to use the L Word unless they are discussing shoes, purses, their daddy, their first boyfriend, their last boyfriend, their experimental stage in college, their college professor, or their kitty/puppy. If you WANT your date to end quickly... say "I think im falling for you"! Your date will JUMP from a moving vehicle on Interstate I-81s mile marker 13 to end that date! Dont believe me... try it! (dont try it... vehicular homicide is no laughing matter, and i waive all responsibility for any attempt)
I guess times truly have changed in the world today. My dad told me to always RESPECT a woman. Pull out a womans chair for her, open the car/truck door, take her by the hand or arm to let her know youre there to lean on, open the door for her and allow her to enter the room first, so all eyes are directed to her, and assume your place beside her. Call her (or text her in 2010) for no other reason but to let her know youre thinking of her. Listen to her talk about her day, and give her the chance to talk first. Surprise her with dinner that you cook and not with your choice of restaurant. NEVER EVER HIT a woman! Never talk AT a woman, never CURSE a woman, never BELITTLE her, never cause her to feel like shes a failure, unworthy, unloved, unwanted, unpretty, or distrusted. Hmmm... well I believe with all my heart that this was more than enough to win the heart of ANY WOMAN in years passed. Once the year 2000 rolled around, its as if women became the men of old, that never appreciated the sweet sentiments and loving gestures. Those gestures and sentiments today mean absolutely nothing to noone! Its out of date relationship advice I suppose, and that is very sad because I truly wanted that sort of relationship for myself.
No longer can I honestly say "True Love Never Fails"... At least not in ALL SITUATIONS! I believe in true love and I believe if 2 PEOPLE have TRUE LOVE in their hearts, minds, and souls for their partner, that theirs NO OBSTACLE they cannot overcome. But if only 1 PERSON has true love, it is not enough, and will never be enough. You cannot make another person see the good in you. You cant make another person love you. You can only hope that you show them enough love and enough respect to gain access to their hearts through charity, hope, passion, sensitivity, charm, and genuine affection. When the other person has the on-ramp to their heart closed down, theirs just no way. You can persist... you can remain constant and true... and you can hope... and pray... and perhaps one day that on-ramp will open up, and you will be able to bring love to their heart and soul. If you are so lucky, never EVER take that for granted! :-)
Ive learned several things over the past few years since my marriage came to an end. These were lessons that were painful, and they have not truly been disproven to date! Lets analyze:
*Chicks DIG the A-HOLE!!! Thats right! Its PROVEN! None will agree, of course, but they dont have to agree verbally as they make the choice everytime! What makes a man an A-Hole? Is this an inherited gene? Is it a learned trait? Is there a school for A-Holes?
*Chicks DIG the BAD BOY!!! Bad Boy syndrome! This can be interpreted many different ways, whether you ride a motorcycle, whether your a drinker and/or a smoker, if you love barhopping with friends, whether you have a love affair with a bong or rolling papers, whether you are a proven womanizer, whether you just have a non commital attitude toward relationships. You dont even have to be a handsome guy to get a chick if youre a Bad Boy. ... either of these traits, or combos including these traits, will get you the girl! BEWARE BAD BOYS!!! If you are a BadBoy and you GET the girl, do NOT commit to her! For the love of God, do NOT use the L WORD...If you do, the Bad Boy appeal is gone. The chase has ended. Then, you find yourself as just another shmuck thats about to be dropped quicker than ACID at WOODSTOCK!
*The WORSE you treat a woman, the MORE she hangs on!!! Again... its been PROVEN! Now, I can only speculate, but I assume that a woman does NOT have to be happy to be in a relationship. I mean, ive seen women be IGNORED, BEAT UP, RIDICULED, HARRASSED, EMBARRASSED, and HURT, both EMOTIONALLY and PHYSICALLY. Of course, I dont believe for one minute that a woman likes to be hit in the face, kicked, verbally abused, spat on, or cheated on, but they seem to respond favorably to that junk! The woman just hangs right in there with em! Now THAT my friends is dedication... but BLINDLY DEDICATED is dangerous!
*The L WORD is KRYPTONITE to todays women! They dont wanna hear that word out of a mans mouth, or any form of that word a man may try to subdue todays woman with! They dont want to see it in a mans eyes. They dont want to use the L Word unless they are discussing shoes, purses, their daddy, their first boyfriend, their last boyfriend, their experimental stage in college, their college professor, or their kitty/puppy. If you WANT your date to end quickly... say "I think im falling for you"! Your date will JUMP from a moving vehicle on Interstate I-81s mile marker 13 to end that date! Dont believe me... try it! (dont try it... vehicular homicide is no laughing matter, and i waive all responsibility for any attempt)
I guess times truly have changed in the world today. My dad told me to always RESPECT a woman. Pull out a womans chair for her, open the car/truck door, take her by the hand or arm to let her know youre there to lean on, open the door for her and allow her to enter the room first, so all eyes are directed to her, and assume your place beside her. Call her (or text her in 2010) for no other reason but to let her know youre thinking of her. Listen to her talk about her day, and give her the chance to talk first. Surprise her with dinner that you cook and not with your choice of restaurant. NEVER EVER HIT a woman! Never talk AT a woman, never CURSE a woman, never BELITTLE her, never cause her to feel like shes a failure, unworthy, unloved, unwanted, unpretty, or distrusted. Hmmm... well I believe with all my heart that this was more than enough to win the heart of ANY WOMAN in years passed. Once the year 2000 rolled around, its as if women became the men of old, that never appreciated the sweet sentiments and loving gestures. Those gestures and sentiments today mean absolutely nothing to noone! Its out of date relationship advice I suppose, and that is very sad because I truly wanted that sort of relationship for myself.
No longer can I honestly say "True Love Never Fails"... At least not in ALL SITUATIONS! I believe in true love and I believe if 2 PEOPLE have TRUE LOVE in their hearts, minds, and souls for their partner, that theirs NO OBSTACLE they cannot overcome. But if only 1 PERSON has true love, it is not enough, and will never be enough. You cannot make another person see the good in you. You cant make another person love you. You can only hope that you show them enough love and enough respect to gain access to their hearts through charity, hope, passion, sensitivity, charm, and genuine affection. When the other person has the on-ramp to their heart closed down, theirs just no way. You can persist... you can remain constant and true... and you can hope... and pray... and perhaps one day that on-ramp will open up, and you will be able to bring love to their heart and soul. If you are so lucky, never EVER take that for granted! :-)
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Top 10 Things That Are Eaton Me Alive... and THE ONE!
Since im new at this, and theirs lots thats been so heavy on my mind lately, I think its only fair that I give another one of my local voices his moment in the sun today. So since im a very random person, and my thoughts change to a new topic within seconds of discovery of one topic, lets see where the TOP 10 things on my mind goes from here:
Top 10 things on my mind currently:
10.. Will Brett Favre actually retire before this season starts (and will he UNretire for a 3rd time?)?
9.... Will it be chilibeans or hotdogs this evening for dinner... or will I get takeout in lue of cookin anything?
8.... How much longer will mom be having her yardsale before I go down and help her pack it in?
7.... Will Bret (my son, not Favre) actually calll me for a ride home from work today?
6.... Will I get to go see "The Other Guys" at the movie theater on Friday Night as I hope?
5.... Will I get to go play some basketball with friends soon (being as how im becoming more out of shape each and every day that passes!)?
4.... Will I have a freakin heat stroke if I get out there and mow this yard in a few moments? (better not take that chance im afraid! LOL)
3.... Will I get to hit Hooters this Sunday Night to watch the Bengals and Cowgirls kick off the NFL preseason with Hooterburgers and Hootergirls all around?!
2.... Hoping that many of my friends that are going through some rough situations become more stable and secure in their thoughts, feelings, and emotions, and are able to come out winners on the other side of their trials, tribulations, worries, fears, and stresses.
1.... Can I possibly find stability and security in MY OWN thoughts, feelings, and emotions?
Things are not all bad in the world lately. I have some positives to build on for the future after all.
*Lebron James, Chris Bosh, & Zydrunas Ilgauskas join Dwayne Wade and Udonis Haslem in Miami, insuring that I will get to see AMPLE TELEVISED GAMES of the Miami Heat in 2010-11!
*The Florida Marlins have some great pitching this season... now if they can just get some bats for 2011 and hang onto the aforementioned starting pitching of this season!
*The Broncos got a scare, and so did I, when Moreno AND Buckhalter went down with pretty much the same injury doing the same drills in camp, but all should be fine by the start of the regular season for both! WHEW!!! Thank God Tim Tebow is around... he could be RB #3 if necessary! What a wildcat they could run! LOL
*"The Other Guys" and "The Expendables" are coming up in the next 2 weeks back to back, and with "Friday Night Lights" Season 4 hitting DVD on August 17 at the same time as "Dexter" Season 4, so i'll have lots to keep my feeble mind entertained visually.
*Season 3 of "Chuck" hits DVD on September 7. I didnt watch Season 3 at all as it aired on tv, but im stoked about seeing Sara... I MEAN CHUCK... ok... both! LOL
*Cant wait for "How I Met Your Mother" Season 5 to hit DVD September 21, on the same day as "Two and A Half Men" Season 7! Happy early Birthday to me!
*Gonna give "Saw 3D" some much anticipated and hyped up love right here! October 29... book it! Already got a date for that date! I wonder if I can talk her into the MIDNIGHT SHOWING even with a Friday workday following? :-)
*I, as well as my children, are healthy and my mom is doing very well!
*I have a roof over my head, good clothes on my back, food in my cabinets, a cell phone to be reached should I be wanted, a computer to play on, satellite tv to keep up with sports and tv shows I love, a truck to get me where im going, and a job to ensure that I am capable of retaining these things.
*I have great friends, in addition to my family, that encourage and promote the good values I possess.
*I know what it means to love someone and be capable of an unconditional love.
*God is STILL God, and ive sown alot of great seeds into others that I havent even begun to reap a harvest from yet... ah, EXPECTANCY! :-)
I get down sometimes... as we all do on occassion. I get lonely. I want that closeness that a loving woman would provide. Im always looking for THE ONE, but what if I havent been truly ready for THE ONE just yet! What if I am still in preparation mode emotionally and spiritually. Its all about timing! Bad timing can break your heart. It did that to me recently. You have someone in your life that you just KNOW that its right. The connection is there, and that unmistakable chemistry! The common interests are there. The morals and values that I want to find in THE ONE are there! Shes attractive, with a magnetic personality. Shes sexy, confident, and just as beautiful on the inside as she is on the outside! And together... its obvious and apparent that she felt everything I did! Wheres the justice in that? Life isnt fair, never claimed to be fair, wont ever be fair, and its things like this that are constant reminders of such! For everything we did have there, theirs that ONE LITTLE THING... the timing... thats what is NOT THERE! So, theirs really not much comfort in knowing you have such a great thing right in front of you, but cannot take it where it COULD go. Words and phrases like "almost", "if only", "im sorry", and "in the future" just seem to cut a little deeper, make you heart ache even more, and provide no real solice.
We have become great friends, and I cherish the friendship we have. Since then, ive found a few friendships that I would not have attained were it not for the bad timing of THE ONE that got away. Theirs nothing to really help ease the pain from finding, and subsequently losing, THE aforementioned ONE! Time will heal, but time is a cruel joke! How much time do we all have? Life is all about making the most of every opportunity, and when opportunity slips right between your fingers... well, how many more opportunities present themselves in life? How much time do we have to find each new opportunity? Time itself is fleeting... it never stands still. Its always moving along, even when we ourselves do not move at all. Should I sleep, knowing that life is still going on during said sleep? Should I allow timing to steal what I know in my heart is something ive waited for, longed for, desired for so long? What if this was true love? The love we always hear about others finding, the love that so many find and never look back? Well, it takes two to tango, and since I dont tango... ONE has to wonder...
Heres to the future... IMAGINE THE POSSIBILITIES... ( wow, I hope that doesnt have copyrights to infringe upon!) LOL
Top 10 things on my mind currently:
10.. Will Brett Favre actually retire before this season starts (and will he UNretire for a 3rd time?)?
9.... Will it be chilibeans or hotdogs this evening for dinner... or will I get takeout in lue of cookin anything?
8.... How much longer will mom be having her yardsale before I go down and help her pack it in?
7.... Will Bret (my son, not Favre) actually calll me for a ride home from work today?
6.... Will I get to go see "The Other Guys" at the movie theater on Friday Night as I hope?
5.... Will I get to go play some basketball with friends soon (being as how im becoming more out of shape each and every day that passes!)?
4.... Will I have a freakin heat stroke if I get out there and mow this yard in a few moments? (better not take that chance im afraid! LOL)
3.... Will I get to hit Hooters this Sunday Night to watch the Bengals and Cowgirls kick off the NFL preseason with Hooterburgers and Hootergirls all around?!
2.... Hoping that many of my friends that are going through some rough situations become more stable and secure in their thoughts, feelings, and emotions, and are able to come out winners on the other side of their trials, tribulations, worries, fears, and stresses.
1.... Can I possibly find stability and security in MY OWN thoughts, feelings, and emotions?
Things are not all bad in the world lately. I have some positives to build on for the future after all.
*Lebron James, Chris Bosh, & Zydrunas Ilgauskas join Dwayne Wade and Udonis Haslem in Miami, insuring that I will get to see AMPLE TELEVISED GAMES of the Miami Heat in 2010-11!
*The Florida Marlins have some great pitching this season... now if they can just get some bats for 2011 and hang onto the aforementioned starting pitching of this season!
*The Broncos got a scare, and so did I, when Moreno AND Buckhalter went down with pretty much the same injury doing the same drills in camp, but all should be fine by the start of the regular season for both! WHEW!!! Thank God Tim Tebow is around... he could be RB #3 if necessary! What a wildcat they could run! LOL
*"The Other Guys" and "The Expendables" are coming up in the next 2 weeks back to back, and with "Friday Night Lights" Season 4 hitting DVD on August 17 at the same time as "Dexter" Season 4, so i'll have lots to keep my feeble mind entertained visually.
*Season 3 of "Chuck" hits DVD on September 7. I didnt watch Season 3 at all as it aired on tv, but im stoked about seeing Sara... I MEAN CHUCK... ok... both! LOL
*Cant wait for "How I Met Your Mother" Season 5 to hit DVD September 21, on the same day as "Two and A Half Men" Season 7! Happy early Birthday to me!
*Gonna give "Saw 3D" some much anticipated and hyped up love right here! October 29... book it! Already got a date for that date! I wonder if I can talk her into the MIDNIGHT SHOWING even with a Friday workday following? :-)
*I, as well as my children, are healthy and my mom is doing very well!
*I have a roof over my head, good clothes on my back, food in my cabinets, a cell phone to be reached should I be wanted, a computer to play on, satellite tv to keep up with sports and tv shows I love, a truck to get me where im going, and a job to ensure that I am capable of retaining these things.
*I have great friends, in addition to my family, that encourage and promote the good values I possess.
*I know what it means to love someone and be capable of an unconditional love.
*God is STILL God, and ive sown alot of great seeds into others that I havent even begun to reap a harvest from yet... ah, EXPECTANCY! :-)
I get down sometimes... as we all do on occassion. I get lonely. I want that closeness that a loving woman would provide. Im always looking for THE ONE, but what if I havent been truly ready for THE ONE just yet! What if I am still in preparation mode emotionally and spiritually. Its all about timing! Bad timing can break your heart. It did that to me recently. You have someone in your life that you just KNOW that its right. The connection is there, and that unmistakable chemistry! The common interests are there. The morals and values that I want to find in THE ONE are there! Shes attractive, with a magnetic personality. Shes sexy, confident, and just as beautiful on the inside as she is on the outside! And together... its obvious and apparent that she felt everything I did! Wheres the justice in that? Life isnt fair, never claimed to be fair, wont ever be fair, and its things like this that are constant reminders of such! For everything we did have there, theirs that ONE LITTLE THING... the timing... thats what is NOT THERE! So, theirs really not much comfort in knowing you have such a great thing right in front of you, but cannot take it where it COULD go. Words and phrases like "almost", "if only", "im sorry", and "in the future" just seem to cut a little deeper, make you heart ache even more, and provide no real solice.
We have become great friends, and I cherish the friendship we have. Since then, ive found a few friendships that I would not have attained were it not for the bad timing of THE ONE that got away. Theirs nothing to really help ease the pain from finding, and subsequently losing, THE aforementioned ONE! Time will heal, but time is a cruel joke! How much time do we all have? Life is all about making the most of every opportunity, and when opportunity slips right between your fingers... well, how many more opportunities present themselves in life? How much time do we have to find each new opportunity? Time itself is fleeting... it never stands still. Its always moving along, even when we ourselves do not move at all. Should I sleep, knowing that life is still going on during said sleep? Should I allow timing to steal what I know in my heart is something ive waited for, longed for, desired for so long? What if this was true love? The love we always hear about others finding, the love that so many find and never look back? Well, it takes two to tango, and since I dont tango... ONE has to wonder...
Heres to the future... IMAGINE THE POSSIBILITIES... ( wow, I hope that doesnt have copyrights to infringe upon!) LOL
Introduction to Its Eaton Me Alive!
OK, so it should be made known first and foremost that im new to the blog scene. So this is NOT gonna be the most fluid, most easily navigated, or most well formed and concieved read you will find. This is for ME to have my little forum to vent, to acknowlege, to solicit, and to just be me. You may laugh, you may scratch your head in confusion, you may cry, you may get mad, you may agree...or disagree, you may need a long break or a vacation after reading my posts, or you may require a stiff drink! You may even be inspired, or feel a bit nostalgic, or optimistic. However you feel, go with it.
Let me start by saying... I need this! This is my way of getting everything thats bottled up inside out of there! Theirs limited space in my head, as anyone that knows me will affirm! I have ALOT of varied topics rolling around up there in the space in which a normal human sized brain WOULD occupy, therefore you may never find a larger variety of topics anywhere your journeys may take you! One paragraph to the next, you may be bombarded with 20 separate thoughts and 20 separate emotions to ride shotgun alongside... SO BE PREPARED! Much like my life has increasingly become with each year, this is a rollercoaster ride that you may be begging to stop... and luckily for all of you, you can just navigate away from the page, never to return should that be your desire. I cannot escape as easily however, for this is my inner demons at work, or my angels in all of their uplifting glory. Its a thought process. Its how I deal with heartbreak and tragedy, pain and emotional suffering, and it will be quite a trippy ride to see how this comes out for any and all eyes to read. I will share the successes and defeats, the smiles and the tears, and (spoiler alert!) sometimes life is just not a pretty thing that can be put into charming and uplifting, encouraging words.
It seems that very little has went in a good direction for me personally since my dad passed away in January of 2009. ( Thank you GOD that You are hangin with him in Heaven) My thought process seems incomplete moreso than ever! I cant seem to make a good decision in much of anything anymore! Dad knew when a woman was a good woman, as he held onto my mom for 45 years of marriage. I couldnt even make a marriage work a quarter of that time! Dads advice was always very smooth, concise, and full of wisdom from many years of experiences. He disguised his intelligence carefully, and always reminded me "dont tell everything you know." I miss his talks, because they always surprised me and always made sense to me. He knew what I needed when i needed it. My world is tinted with grays and blacks without him here, but his memory and everything he has made me brightens things more daily when I begin to institute them into life. Its just a slow process when you keep getting emotionally batted around and cant seem to find your stability. I never feel like im where im supposed to be, and ive been lots of places!
Its devestating to lose your dad for anyone that hasnt. If youre close to him, and you love him. If hes ever done anything for you, or everything for you in my case, its something that you just find almost inconceivable to recover from! You miss him on his birthday. You miss him on your birthday. You miss him on Veterans Day. You miss him on the 4th of July. You miss him on Fathers Day. You miss him on your kids birthdays (ive got 3, so thats 3 days of the year extra!). You miss him on Thanksgiving. You miss him on Christmas. You miss him on the anniversary of the fall, and the 4 subsequent days until he passed away. You miss him EVERY SINGLE DAY of your life when you wake up, knowing hes not going to be pulling in your driveway, he wont be sitting on his porch, he wont be watching CNN while laying on his couch. A year and a half later, its still just as hard! He wont see any of my kids graduate! I know he was ready to get outta this world, and cant blame him for leaving me behind. He did all he could do for me. He prepared me and gave me my foundation. The GREAT things about me, I owe to my dad and my mom. The worst things about me, I owe to not taking their advice and trying things either my way or others way.
When you have fewer and fewer things to look forward to in life... be it your kids growing up and getting ever closer to leaving the home youve done your best to provide, another failed relationship that brings heartache and an emotional crash landing in an ocean of tears, unfulfilling jobs, losing a friend, parent, sibling... whatever it is, you find yourself looking for something to replace what is fleeting. Once that initial brick in your wall is punched out, it becomes easier for more bricks to fall away, and before long, the wall that supports yourself is crumbled and broken in a pile before you. Before you can rebuild, theirs a cleanup involved. Youve gotta pick up all those pieces, some you can reuse, some are so decimated that theirs nothing to salvage, but you MUST find more bricks to rebuild that wall... replacing those that are unusable. So wheres the Brick store? How do we get more bricks? Emotionally, its taxing to pick yourself up and begin again... from the ground up!
But thats where im at... ground floor! Ive got my pile of broken, shattered bricks and brick dust in front of me. I begin to sift through the rubble. Then... its like the pieces crumble even more. ONE DAY... I will get this pile removed... all the pieces salvaged for reuse that can be reused. But that day doesnt seem to be today, or tomorrow. Who knows when that day will come?
Let me start by saying... I need this! This is my way of getting everything thats bottled up inside out of there! Theirs limited space in my head, as anyone that knows me will affirm! I have ALOT of varied topics rolling around up there in the space in which a normal human sized brain WOULD occupy, therefore you may never find a larger variety of topics anywhere your journeys may take you! One paragraph to the next, you may be bombarded with 20 separate thoughts and 20 separate emotions to ride shotgun alongside... SO BE PREPARED! Much like my life has increasingly become with each year, this is a rollercoaster ride that you may be begging to stop... and luckily for all of you, you can just navigate away from the page, never to return should that be your desire. I cannot escape as easily however, for this is my inner demons at work, or my angels in all of their uplifting glory. Its a thought process. Its how I deal with heartbreak and tragedy, pain and emotional suffering, and it will be quite a trippy ride to see how this comes out for any and all eyes to read. I will share the successes and defeats, the smiles and the tears, and (spoiler alert!) sometimes life is just not a pretty thing that can be put into charming and uplifting, encouraging words.
It seems that very little has went in a good direction for me personally since my dad passed away in January of 2009. ( Thank you GOD that You are hangin with him in Heaven) My thought process seems incomplete moreso than ever! I cant seem to make a good decision in much of anything anymore! Dad knew when a woman was a good woman, as he held onto my mom for 45 years of marriage. I couldnt even make a marriage work a quarter of that time! Dads advice was always very smooth, concise, and full of wisdom from many years of experiences. He disguised his intelligence carefully, and always reminded me "dont tell everything you know." I miss his talks, because they always surprised me and always made sense to me. He knew what I needed when i needed it. My world is tinted with grays and blacks without him here, but his memory and everything he has made me brightens things more daily when I begin to institute them into life. Its just a slow process when you keep getting emotionally batted around and cant seem to find your stability. I never feel like im where im supposed to be, and ive been lots of places!
Its devestating to lose your dad for anyone that hasnt. If youre close to him, and you love him. If hes ever done anything for you, or everything for you in my case, its something that you just find almost inconceivable to recover from! You miss him on his birthday. You miss him on your birthday. You miss him on Veterans Day. You miss him on the 4th of July. You miss him on Fathers Day. You miss him on your kids birthdays (ive got 3, so thats 3 days of the year extra!). You miss him on Thanksgiving. You miss him on Christmas. You miss him on the anniversary of the fall, and the 4 subsequent days until he passed away. You miss him EVERY SINGLE DAY of your life when you wake up, knowing hes not going to be pulling in your driveway, he wont be sitting on his porch, he wont be watching CNN while laying on his couch. A year and a half later, its still just as hard! He wont see any of my kids graduate! I know he was ready to get outta this world, and cant blame him for leaving me behind. He did all he could do for me. He prepared me and gave me my foundation. The GREAT things about me, I owe to my dad and my mom. The worst things about me, I owe to not taking their advice and trying things either my way or others way.
When you have fewer and fewer things to look forward to in life... be it your kids growing up and getting ever closer to leaving the home youve done your best to provide, another failed relationship that brings heartache and an emotional crash landing in an ocean of tears, unfulfilling jobs, losing a friend, parent, sibling... whatever it is, you find yourself looking for something to replace what is fleeting. Once that initial brick in your wall is punched out, it becomes easier for more bricks to fall away, and before long, the wall that supports yourself is crumbled and broken in a pile before you. Before you can rebuild, theirs a cleanup involved. Youve gotta pick up all those pieces, some you can reuse, some are so decimated that theirs nothing to salvage, but you MUST find more bricks to rebuild that wall... replacing those that are unusable. So wheres the Brick store? How do we get more bricks? Emotionally, its taxing to pick yourself up and begin again... from the ground up!
But thats where im at... ground floor! Ive got my pile of broken, shattered bricks and brick dust in front of me. I begin to sift through the rubble. Then... its like the pieces crumble even more. ONE DAY... I will get this pile removed... all the pieces salvaged for reuse that can be reused. But that day doesnt seem to be today, or tomorrow. Who knows when that day will come?
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